Learning about God from that “One” Student

Since school has started, I have had this one student in my 7th Grade Math class that has been so tough. Every teacher has sent this student to the office at least once. My first two weeks I sent him twice.

This kid has had a rough life and has seen everything. I feel so bad for him and what he has had to go through at such a young age. Because of this, this student has struggled with his behavior and being compliant towards the teacher. He knows math. He is actually really smart, but he refuses to put any effort in and takes away from the learning of the students around him.

The other day, he was so distracting that I sent him out into the hall. I had the students doing some practice and extension work and I went out to confront him. I had so many things going on in my mind and I was full of frustration for this student.

“WHY DOESN’T HE JUST SIT THERE AND DO HIS WORK? IS IT REALLY THAT HARD??”

I walked into the hall and observed him kicking at the brick outside of my room. There were so many things that I just wanted to yell at him for but for some reason I couldn’t.

I looked at this student, and asked him to look at me. I told him “You know what? I know that you know how to do this. I know you are smarter than you are trying to make everyone believe you are. I know that there are teachers at this school that send you to the office when you misbehave and I know that I even sent you away at the beginning. I know that is what you are used to is getting sent away. But that is not how it is going to work in my class. I want you here. I want you to learn. I like having you in my class. You have friends here and I know they want you here. But, I can’t have you not doing your work. I can’t have you disrespecting your classmates. But, I promise, I do want you here.”

I watched this student look at me, in silence, with this weird look on his face. I could tell what he was thinking, “Wow, she really does want me here”.

The bell was getting close to ringing so I had this student wait until everyone had left. Then I asked him “So, are you going to be better for me tomorrow?” He didn’t make eye contact, but shook his head yes and then left.

The next day he came to school, got a pencil and a paper for the first time without me asking, and sat down to begin his bell ringer. I was SHOCKED. That day he completed a worksheet, and did his ALEKS topics and I rewarded him by letting him sit by his friends for the end of class.

This student sometimes needs some tough love still, but he is doing tremendously better.

I have learned so much about Heavenly Father through this teaching process. I think that I am a lot like this student. I disobey his commandments and I struggle to be like he wants me to be all the time. Sometimes he has to chasten me, but there is one thing that always stays the same.

His love for me. His love for us.

He wants us to be able to return to live with Him. He wants us to find the JOY in our lives that come because he LOVES us.

When we sin, struggle, doubt, he forgives us and instead asks us “So, are you going to be better for me tomorrow?”

As we start a new week this week, think about this. As we get to start over, are we going to be better for HIM?

God really does love us despite our weaknesses and shortcomings. He loves us through our good days and our bad days.

He will always be there for us. I am so grateful that I have such a loving Heavenly Father.

Learning about God post

1 Year After…

It has been an exact year since I have been home from serving an LDS mission in Edmonton, AB, Canada. There have been so many ups and downs during this year of being home. I had no idea that it would be this hard on me spiritually, mentally, and physically but also so rewarding.

There are a lot of expectations within the church for LDS missionaries. You are expected to serve the 18 months if you are a woman or the 2 years if you are a man. During this time you are expected to live a higher law and return better than you left and continue to stay holy and righteous. You are expected to get married and to start a family, or if that is not your path, you are expected to be excited to go to a young adult singles ward.

I really don’t like expectations. Especially these ones because I literally didn’t accomplish any of them. I did not serve for 18 months, I only served for a little over 5. I came home really spiritual, but did not keep up on the things needed to stay that way. I did not get married or start a family, and I have not been a super great sport about going to my YSA ward.

So in my mind, for this past year, I felt like I had failed in so many ways. I have dealt a lot with so many internal struggles and have faltered spiritually along the way.

I am stronger now because of it though. I have been angry at the Lord, because its the easiest thing to do unfortunately, but have learned on how to rely on him even when its hard to have faith that he wants the best thing for you. I have learned how to rely on scripture study to light the path when you feel like you are overcome by the cloud of darkness. I have learned that I can continue on with serving the Lord in a way that I didn’t think was possible and reach so many people.

Before I left on my mission, I had to give up many things that I loved. I had a really great job in the school, had a scholarship at college, had an amazing boyfriend, I was close with my family and had several great and close friends. I was promised that I would be able to have all those things when I returned and that they would be even greater. So, nows the test, has it been true?

The answer is yes. Everything that I have sacrificed I have been able to be blessed with even more from God. I am going to have a great job starting in August that I couldn’t have planned for myself. If I were still on my mission I would’ve missed this opportunity. The Lord is so mindful.

I have been able to find a university that I can afford and that I can go at my own speed. That has been a HUGE blessing in my life.

I still have an amazing boyfriend who waited faithfully for me to come home and has supported me during all the hard things that I have gone through inside of my head.

I am even closer to my family and have made more lifelong friends that I was able to meet on my mission.

So, as I reflect a year later, I still say that my mission was the best thing to have ever happened to me. Even though I have struggled about being home, I know it was what I needed to understand the Atonement of Jesus Christ. It was what I needed to test my testimony and I know I am where I need to be because of it.  I might not have experienced all of the expectations, but I was able to receive what the Lord knew I, individually, needed.

I am grateful for this last year. I have grown so much and have been blessed with so many things. I know that the Lord watches over me, and if he watches over me, I know he watches over you too! We can go through those times of struggle and realize that God really is aware of us! 🙂

 

year later reflection.png

 

 

2 Weeks Later…

Hey Folks!

Sorry that it has been a while since I last wrote. There have been so many things going through my head and I haven’t quite been able to figure out how to write them down. I have found myself truly humbled these last few weeks. I have found it amazing what many things you can learn in just a few days.

The first thing that I have learned is that opposition is there to make you grow. Part of the reason why I haven’t written anything, is because there have been a few people writing to me about only posting things to do with the Bible and no the Book of Mormon. Which is fine. I totally understand! The Bible is the word of God and we should share things about it. But, I believe the Book of Mormon adds to the Bible in the truthfulness of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and it was really hard for me to have people tell me that I shouldn’t believe the things that I do. I just think that if it teaches of Christ, why does it really matter?

I have finally been able to let it go. It took me a while. I just realized that I know that I am writing about what God needs me too. I am sharing what he needs me too. I am doing this because I love him. Not because I love what people have to say about what I write. That has been what I have needed to let it go. How amazing that is.

The next thing that I have learned is that I cannot control everything. I have an extremely hard time wanting to control anything and everything because I don’t like feeling vulnerable, or in a place of weakness. I have been working hard at recognizing the negative emotions that I have had with control. Emotions like fear of failing, grief about what I should’ve done, and fear of not getting what I want. Its not the easiest thing to let go of, but I have found a lot of peace just with 2 weeks of letting go of those emotions.

The last thing, and probably the most important is that God truly is aware of ME! A couple weeks ago, I got a call from a principal at a school where I am living. He wanted me to come in a meet with them. When I got there, they offered me a job before I even interviewed. It was really neat. But, then I had all the fears and all of the opposition happen. Things with my University and Student Teaching weren’t able to line up. So we went back and forth with the idea of me accepting the job. There was fear about not getting it, and disappointment when things were going wrong.

But, after 2 weeks of figuring things out, we were able to make it work and I will be able to teach next year. It just was perfect knowledge to me that God knows who I am and that he wants me to succeed.

With all of the many things that have happened this week, I have realized that I have been given a great opportunity to experience life. To have a body, to go through trials, successes and find happiness. All of this was given to me because I decided to follow Christ. Just like me, you are here to experience life. I hope that you follow Him and find the true JOY and happiness that he has offered.

2 Weeks later....png

Dating in a Tech Savvy World

Recently I had a dear friend express to me about her recent dating experiences. She told me ” I really tried to put myself out there. I went on so many dates. But I have found the guys are so judgmental and just have this checklist in their mind and like nobody is good enough. I know girls are probably the same way but I just see it from my point of view you know. But anyways I just got on so many first dates none of the dates turn into second dates and it’s just getting really old!!”

It is so sad. I know she isn’t the only one either. A lot of the Young Adults right now ranging from 18-30 are struggling to find people that are truly interested in dating. I hear many people talking about it every week about how frustrating it is to just find somebody who cares enough to know them.

It’s difficult because of the unrealistic expectations that we put on others because of the perfectionism that we see online in our social media. Everyone is always thinking that they can have someone better and are spending more time “ghosting” than communicating. They are picky because they think that perfect male or female is somewhere out there.

Well, only Jesus Christ is perfect, and if you are trying to find his perfection you will be looking for a long time. We are humans and that is okay! It is part of Gods plan to have us be imperfect beings who can learn and experience life. He wants us to communicate and develop relationships and knowledge. We can take those things with us to the next life, but we won’t be able to take our worldly possessions.

I feel really bad for my generation. I feel bad for my kids generation. How are people going to find the one that will help them on their journey to God? How are they supposed to find the one to raise their kids with? How are they supposed to find a spouse that knows how to work hard, if they won’t even put effort into knowing you?

I hope that people realize that there are great people everywhere. You could meet someone you come to love in a place you least expect it. I hope that if someone is putting themselves out there for you, that you at least put an effort into getting to know them.

That’s what Christ would have done.

I know that as we rely on God, that he will guide us to those people who will mean the most to us. God loves all his children.

Dating in a Tech Savvy World

Are We Children of God?

Knowing that you are a child of God is the simplest, and most powerful knowledge that anyone can have. To me though, it seems to be the hardest and most difficult for me to accept. I am not sure why. Maybe its because I feel like I’m not worthy of that divine lineage. Maybe its because I don’t fully understand who He is and what it means to be His child. I’m not sure. There have been times in my life that I have felt so close to him and knew I was his child. But, there have been others where I have questioned and felt unsure.

I was listening to a talk today by Brian K. Taylor titled “Am I a Child of God” and I felt like it was just what I needed to address this question and gain the knowledge that I need. He shared a quote by Boyd K. Packer that says:

“You are a child of God. He is the father of your spirit. Spiritually you are of noble birth, the offspring of the King of Heaven. Fix that truth in your mind and hold to it. However many generations in your mortal ancestry, no matter what race or people you represent, the pedigree of your spirit can be written on a single line. You are a child of God!”

Then Brian continues to say: “Coming to know these truths with certainty helps us overcome trials, troubles, and afflictions of every kind. When asked, “How can we help those struggling with [a personal challenge]?” an Apostle of the Lord instructed, “Teach them their identity and their purpose.”

What can I learn from these quotes about being a child of God?

  1. I learn that God is the father of my spirit.
  2. I learn that I am of noble birth
  3. I am the offspring of a KING
  4. I am a child of an all knowing God

What blessings can I receive knowing that I am a Child of God and living that way?

  1. Overcoming trials
  2. Overcoming troubles
  3. Overcoming afflictions of EVERY KIND

Those are some pretty amazing promises. One thing that I love about God is that he has made everything so simple for us. He has made it so easy to return to live with him. Unfortunately we are the ones that stand in our own way. We lose the knowledge that God is our father. We forget that that knowledge is what helps us to OVERCOME the world. 

God knew that there would be times that we would forget our true identity. He knew that we would struggle in mortality and would sometimes lost sight of where we truly want to end up.

He has blessed us with the knowledge of prayer. He wants us to speak to him. Ask him in prayer if he loves you. Specifically you. Ask him if he knows who you are. Ask him if you really are his child. He will tell you. He will witness it to you through the power of the Holy Ghost.

There is a story from Brian K. Taylors talk that really stood out to me. He told a story of a young women who had been in a bad car accident and the other driver had ended up dying. The young women could not forgive herself and felt like God was so disappointed in her and that He didn’t want her as a child. Luckily she had friends and family members who were concerned about her and one of her leaders invited her to write down and say “I am a Child of God” 10 times each, daily.

Brain quoted the young woman and said:

“‘Writing the words was easy,” she recalls, “but I couldn’t speak them. … That made it real, and I didn’t really believe God wanted me as His child. I would curl up and cry.”
After several months, Jen was finally able to complete the task every day. “I poured out my whole soul,” she says, “pleading with God. … Then I began to believe the words.” This belief allowed the Savior to begin mending her wounded soul.”

Do we sometimes hold ourselves back from letting the Savior take upon him our sins? Do we limit ourselves to only feeling the negative and not the positive. I know that I do.

I am going to take this challenge. To write down that I am a Child of God and say them to myself each day. I want to truly experience life knowing that I am a Child of God and that my Father in Heaven is on my side.

I hope you will take the challenge too and allow the Savior to begin mending your wounded soul.

Have a great Sabbath!

Child of God

10 Things About Me

I have a short post for all of you today. Many of you don’t know much about me, unless your family… (Hey Mom!)  So, here are 10 things, if you aren’t family, that you don’t know about me.

  1. I love anything to do with sports. I currently help coach girls basketball at the high school and love it.
  2. I am working on my bachelor’s degree in Elementary Education.
  3. I grew up playing the violin, but don’t play it as much now, even though I would like too.
  4. I have been dating my boyfriend Caden for about 2.5 years. He provides me with so much happiness and love and I am so grateful for him. Cade post
  5. I have had 3 surgeries. One knee and 2 hip. All on the same leg. surgery
  6. My main education goal is to be an Elementary Psychologist, and later expand to a PhD in Psychology.
  7. I get really nervous when I meet new people.
  8. I am obsessed with Planners. I currently have 3.. not including my electronic versions.  I have a problem with wanting to plan out everything in my life. 🙂
  9. I am an observer. I don’t love to socialize, but I enjoy listening and watching others socialize.
  10. I have kept a journal since I was 8 and love writing about the events and thoughts that I have.

It was actually pretty hard coming up with 10 things, but I finally got it. If you would like to follow this blog, you can follow it on:

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/yaersblog

Instagram: http://www.instagram.com/yaersblog

Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/yaersblog

I would love to connect with you. 🙂

About Me post 1

Disappointments

This past week, I have felt disappointed.

A lot of my disappointment comes from wanting to control and plan everything, and then getting upset when it doesn’t go like I planned.

Its not really a great and fun way to live. I got disappointed when work was uneventful. I got disappointed when I didn’t do well on a test in school. Disappointed when the meals that I cooked didn’t turn out as planned. Disappointed when relationships aren’t developing in the way that I would like. And then of course feeling disappointed in myself and how I am doing.

I was reading in the scriptures and came across a verse that I had never really noticed before. It says “But, behold, the righteous, the saints of the Holy One of Israel, they who have believed in the Holy One of Israel, they who have endured the crosses of the world, and despised the shame of it, they shall inherit the kingdom of God, which was prepared for them from the foundation of the world, and their joy shall be full forever” (2 Nephi 9:18).

I got thinking about the crosses of the world. What are some of the crosses of the world that I have to endure?

For me, disappointments are one of them. Disappointment is not something that is Godlike. Instead it was created by the world to give us an excuse to be upset about things. It is one of my worldly crosses that I must endure. So what can be done about it?

I found this quote on Twitter that reminded me of things that I am often disappointed by, but also who I can rely on to get through them. It was written by Jennifer Rothschild. It says:

“Sometimes our friends fail us. Our health fails. The economy fails, dreams fail to come true, and relationships we’ve counted on can even fail too. But God does not fail, cannot fail, and will never fail. You can trust him completely, no matter what you are going through.”

I read that quote and found myself checking things off because I had felt the disappointments that come from friends, health, economy, dreams, and relationships. I love though, that Jennifer reminds us who we can depend on. Who’s intention is never to hurt. His intention is to help us feel loved and valued.

So, when you are overwhelmed with the feelings of disappointments, get down on you knees and pray to the Lord. Express to him all of what you are feeling and why. Give those feeling to HIM to take care of them, then let it go and move on.

There is so much power in this. He will help take away the pain of our disappointments. God is so good and He gave us his Son for this reason. Let’s use the atonement to help us get rid of our negative feelings and accept positive ones, so we can find true JOY.

Disappointments 1